Green is NOT your Color!

Obviously miserable people are the worst. But those of us who appear to be happy on the outside yet speak with forked tongue and a malicious undertone are even more deadly. Sometimes those jokes aren't just jokes. But barbs to make the butt of the "joke" feel bad in some way in order to make the joker feel better about their miserable existence.

Then, when this same person tells someone else all your business... things that you brought to them knowing that these things they would take to their grave. Not knowing that inside this person was already dead. This person you call friend, this person to whom you supposedly can't imagine your life without, this person you call friend is tearing you down every chance they get. Why? Jealousy. That green dress that we throw on when we are having a fat day, a bad hair day, a not-so-cute day, a low-self-esteem day.

Having battled a jealous spirit in the past, I know how it feels to want someone else to see what you only imagine you are seeing. Wanting this person to not live their life the way they are and succeed in such a manner. Never truly being happy for this person because you want this person' life, looks, charm, opportunities, friends, experiences, knowledge. And instead of doing better for yourself, you lash out & try to destroy them. Not always s concious effort, but definitely a continuous one.

We encounter these people all the time. And we HAVE to be weary of them. Anyone telling you all of someone's business that they call friend is certainly doing the same to you. And it is all out of jealousy. Usually these people surround themselves with the caliber of people they could never become & attempt to leech and/or glean these peoples mannerisms, lifestyles, everything they try to become these people that they are not nor were raised to be. And in essence become flawed copies of these people with higher quality class and tastes. All of this from a desire to be someone other than who they are.

So to these people, I implore you to love yourselves. I had to learn to love me & be me & do me regardless. I had to learn that the spirit of jealousy should not be acted upon, but identified and corrected. You have to bring into question WHY you feel this way and be real with yourself. If you can't behonest with yourself you can't be honest with anyone else.

There are people who can identify insincerity instanly & those who seem to thrive on it. You need to know yourself enough to know which one of this is you.

But in the meantime in between time, I think people need to not just identify that green dress they put on, but figure out why they wear it so often.

BillBORED Snoozic Awards

Whadda waste of time!

If I wanted to be confounded I could have and SHOULD have watched HEROES! I missed the Janet Jackson performance because I was like clipping my toenails or something more exciting like that. But let's just get to the "highlights"...

I could have done without the whole show, I could have had a V8! I mean on WHAT planet does Rhianna win 3 awards and one of which is in the same category as MJB!??! I mean c'mon people Mary been in it longer & ha actually gotten BETTER. Rhianna, is a no-talent, big headed, clone of Beyonce with the ashy tracks that Beyonce used to always rock when she first started. And just a fashion note for Rhianna, you gotta big forehead PLEASE stop parting that shit down the middle!!!

Moving on... Gwen, I mean GWEN what the shit was that. Isn't she like 40? Why was she hopping around yodeling and carrying on. Get back with No Doubt & make music with a conscience. and this new blond bob isn't cutting it either.

Fergie always look like she is moments away from dropping to her knees & slobbing a knob. SERIOUSLY, especially with that new face. Those lips always look ready to get down witht he get down at a moments notice. ILK!

Mary, baby, I love you... it's been a long time coming, but I LOVE YOU! but the fur. THE FUR on every outfit looked like half a cat, a wet cat @ that. Baby you were in Vegas, why did u even have a fur stole that you then just dropped on the floor????

And finally, I was left utterly speechless by Three 6 Mafia and Chingy. What int he name of all that is coontastic & wrong with the music biz was that???? Juicy Jay was higher than the price of premium gas in Montgomery County. I don't even know what he was saying or trying to say or about to say or attempting to say. They bleeped out what I am sure was inaapropriate, but in reality they should have just dragged him off the stage for setting the race back like that yet again.

Almost everything else was boring or wack or both. And by that I am not surprised. The music biz is in the shytter & with he exception of T.I. (whom i adore even if his panties was showin), Luda & Pharrell the performances were wack at BEST!

If I forgot something you thought was a bright spot, please forgive me because all in all it was a blur of boredom interspersed with glimpses of the beauty that is Luda's mouf & T.I.'s menacing countenance!